I'm standing stranded on the same ground.

scribbles -- 12.20

In Facebook, a lot of friends has answered "100 truths about me" and tagged me so I can fill it out. It's a way of sharing details about yourself in a summarized form.
One truth about me is that I'm afraid of heights. I'm not sure if I can be categorized as altophobic. When I go to a theme park, I don't do Ferris Wheels but I rode on one roller coaster. I won't do it again, though. If you're in Cebu, you might have heard of Crown Regency's Edge Coaster. Everyone went gaga about it, tourists and natives alike. I was not one of them.
Let me share two experiences with overcoming my fear of heights.
My first out-of-the-country trip was to Kuala Lumpur last August. We went to Genting. If I were to describe the place, it was as cold as Baguio City (the coldest place in the Philippines that I've ever been to) and a big Enchanted Kingdom (famous theme park) city. First thing we did in Genting was ride their cable car. It is deemed as the South East Asia's longest cable car and maybe the world's fastest. At first, I had no idea the car would be suspended by a cable while it ran. Anyway, I rode it together with my bf and 2 friends. They were having fun taking photos. I was scared to death everytime I looked down. I thought I was gonna be sick, but my boyfriend helped me ease my fear. He held my hand and told me anything so I can forget I was 100-feet above the ground. Anyway, I survived but I won't do it again.
Earlier today, 6 of us went on a Bohol tour. It was jam-packed. We went to see the Blood Compact site, lit candles at the Baclayon Church, took pictures of the Chocolate hills, rode the all-terrain vehicle around the Choc hills, saw and touched the largest 23-meter python in the country (another fear of mine: snakes!) and went on the Loboc River Cruise. But one part of the tour that I wasn't very fond of, was the Hanging Bridge. I would never have treaded on it but again, Angelo, my bf held me and encouraged me on. Telling me that if we were to join the Amazing Race, it $1M would be our prize at the end. I was near tears when I realized I had to tread the bridge back to site where we started. But I finished the tread and I was happy I made it.
Probably other people would not be amazed that Angelo was there for me, helping me overcome my fear. But it still amazes me that he knows me, he knows how to work his magic with me. He wasn't the least impatient with me the whole time. If I were in his place, I would give up and leave. Haha. Might be too harsh, but I'm sure there would've been a fight. Well, I guess I'm just blessed he really loves me.

scribbles -- 12.5

I wish I was tall. If I would want to change something about me, it would be the height. But I was wondering why I still keep on wearing flat sandals or flip-flops which do not seem to flatter. I plan to start wearing heels more often so I can get used to them and also make me appear taller. This is gonna be one of new year's resolutions. Well, I'm just wondering why they call it that if it does not resolve anything in one's life simply because one doesn't even know how to implement it.

Today I was wearing 3-inch heels. And it was just after about full 10 hours of walking around in them did I realize that this was how those Chinese woman felt when they were trying to get Lotus Feet. Ugh.

Damning Silence

I know I haven't said a word last month, even though I promised myself that I would always post an entry at least every month. I can easily say I have been busy to find time to lie down (this is usually my lightbulb-moments position) and type away on the Acer laptop. But that would be wrong.

I'm not really sure why I haven't visited my dashboard for over 6 weeks. Anyway, I'm back! I promise I will write with vigor in the days to come. I even find it weird there has been almost no activity in my social networking life except of course twitter which is a daily habit. Haha! But silence is mostly due to the fact that I don't know what to write anymore. This may be a big no-no in the blogger rule book to admit in print, but it's true.

November had been a pretty crrazy. Crazy for different reasons. Let me list a few...

One. My boyfriend and I had been fighting alot, than usual. And it scares me sometimes.

Two. Work had been kinda demanding, even when the changes were months before. The tasks had increased and responsibilities were bigger. I'm not complaining because I'm happy despite the challenges.

Three. Family disputes is another source of stress. I can't say much of the details for it's easier to deny them when you don't talk about them. Thank God for friends who listen sincerely or at least seem to be.

Four. Budget and expenses don't add up. This may be normal for someone who isn't used to saving really, or hasn't learn the actual skill of saving money. I am an impulsive buyer but mostly I heart to eat. Most of the expenses goes to eating out. Because of this, there are some days I just want to pull my hair out in distress. If not for my love of vanity, I'd look like a mess, like I already don't! I know I may need help but I'm sure I can still change. I can learn to discipline. This can be my new year's resolution. Yey! I got one.

So anyway, I can blah-blah more but I'm running out of time. I have to leave now. But I will stay true to my promise to be more active in updating my blog starting today. As long as I have access to unlimited internet connection, that is.

This is not goodbye, just see you later!

chiclois♥