right now

what's on my mind right now?

> what to wear later when i go to ayala? i'm excited to see my cousins whom i didn't see for a long time.

> what time will my boyfriend go online? and so, will we be online at the same time? i wanna talk to him. blah blah blah

> will i be able to save money from my next paycheck? the last one didn't do so fine. i'm on a stage cebuanos call ting-bits

> who will become the next president? will he/she do better than Arroyo? will the government be able to rise from corruption to be able to serve the Filipinos first before themselves? no one would really know

> i love the silence, just the whirring of the electric fan beside me and the clicking of the keyboard as i type away

> i'm playing Make Me a Celebrity on Facebook, when will i be able to buy a Home in the Hamptons?

> i'm hungry, where shall i eat later? what shall i eat? my gums doesn't hurt that much anymore. i need to remember to take my meds after eating.

> i just saw "The Duchess" by Kiera Knightley. does the Duke really have to hurt Georgiana so much? describing him rude is an understatement. emotionally oppressive maybe right on spot. were all Brits so stern and uncaring of the women's feelings? good thing, i'm born to a society who accepts women as equals now.

> i miss my family, my little brother especially... however, he is not so little anymore. with 10 years between us, but we talk and laugh like friends. wish he can stay with me here in Cebu.

> what do ppl think when they read my blog? do they see random ramblings? or do they see me a person who like them, have so many decisions to make everyday, so many questions that they can't seem to ask anyone but themselves? i don't know... my mind may burst with all these ideas but i hope i still seem sane to people around me. for their sake, i hope they never find out. or maybe they already do... whatever.

on faith

before you continue reading this, know that all this is based on personal opinion. however i would also love to hear your thoughts on this.

I am a Catholic. I am a Christian.
They don't necessarily mean the same thing. Yet I am both.

I have been baptized in the Catholic church, been taught the Catholic doctrine, been attending Catholic schools except college. I have been raised by Catholic parents and relatives. Though I believe I am faithful, I am not far from sin at all.

Lately I have been attending service by a Christian group. We sing songs of worship, then the pastor will speak for an hour on the topic prepared. Then another set of praise songs will be sung as recap for the service. Usually, my eyes will water and I won't notice until tears run my face while singing. I don't know why singing touches me so.

Last weekend, I was with my relatives and the topic of religion came up and I mentioned that I was recently at a christian gathering. My uncle chastised me by saying that they are trying to recruit me into their group. I did not think they were, so I did not say anything. He however went into a long argument how they will try to lure people into their religion. I felt he was being bias. Though he made me feel a bit paranoid, he may still be right at some point.

Anyway, wherever I am I know what I believe in and I will still remain what I really am: a child of God. No one can take that away from me. I Am Nothing without CHRIST. This is what being a Christian means.

Religion is important. For some, it even provides structure in one's life. For others, it is their relationship with the Maker. For me, FAITH is the most significant of all for without this, religion is nothing. A church is not a church without the faithful, as they say. I try to remain faithful amidst challenges and joys in life. Though sometimes it can be strenuous that I wouldn't know what to do. I would feel totally lost and helpless but I will turn to prayer. I just tell myself it would soon be over anyway.

So there. My thoughts on faith. ♥

Rumor Has It

Rumor Has It

With Jennifer Aniston and Kevin Costner.

I came across old DVDs yesterday, I was picking thru some to while away the day at home for I was absent from work the night before. Ooh, I haven't seen this one yet: Rumor has it. Picked it from among the other chic flicks, thinking it would be like the others. Easy watching for time to pass by quickly.

Well, I felt the movie was long. I kinda get bored at the first 15 minutes but I wanted to finish the movie and so I did. I don't like the movie. It was weird. 3 generations of women in the family end up sleeping with the same man. Gross. I would never recommend that movie to anyone. Though here I am blogging away... Well, I'm blogging to say: Don't Watch This Movie.

+ Both Jennifer Aniston and Kevin Costner looked hot as expected. +

lists... lists... lists!

people have been writing lists since time immemorial for whatever reason.
for me, writing a list gives me an order in this somehow anarchic mind.
sometimes, it helps define who we are in this topsy-turvy world. at times, it even provides us direction in our lives.

why we create our own lists are our own business, but my list of lists are either of the following:

• the easy ones are the things i love: movies, songs, celebrities, friends, clothestags, brands of footwear, animated characters, tv shows
• some may include the mundane: countries i dream of travelling, fave things of the week, hottest buys of the month, coolest people i know or something similar
• few can be strange or downright crazy

my John Goddard-ish list (so-called bucket list)

1. sing to an audience of at least 50 be it a company or family affair -- probably with mask on! :))
2. ride on a rollercoaster -- did this once, on Space Shuttle @ Enchanted Kingdom
3. kiss under a mistletoe -- no mistletoe grows in the country, must go to where there is winter
4. learn to surf passably in CamSur or Siargao Island -- my knees wobble at the idea :S
5. lose 10 pounds in 2 months - before my trip to Malaysia on August
6. enjoy Camiguin island's slice of paradise -- not a fan of Boracay, haven't been there though
7. carress a dolphin or ride on one -- i've seen a few on Tañon Strait, exhilarating experience
8. hike to Balinsasayao twin lakes in Negros Oriental
9. visit Fiji islands in the Pacific -- my boyfriend suggested this
10. hike to any mountaintop where fog is all around -- get to talk in the clouds
11. walk the Via Dolorosa or Way of Grief in Jerusalem
12. fly to Rome and visit the pope -- hope to get a photo with him too
13. learn to fly a plane or a helicopter
14. scuba dive Apo Island and then to the Great Barrier Reef -- that is, after ive learned how to scuba dive. wee!
    

there are still alot of things i wanna do... i will be updating my blog again soon.
but if you have any suggestions, feel free to leave a comment. :D

Angel Fredelle Mishka

It's my niece's birthday today, isn't it? First born of my sister, she has a rather grave disposition, usually seen without a smile on her face...
But when she does, which she does rarely, she lits up everyone in the room. She is a beautiful child, with eyes that see right through you and they seem to understand you even without uttering a word.

Happy birthday mishka! You're 4 years old today. May you stay young and sweet.

I love you.

* Initially, I wrote in that mishka is 3 yrs old. I was wrong. I updated it anyway. I'm sorry sis!

Night at the Museum 2

Ben Stiller and Amy Adams on Night at the Museum 2.

Movie was OK. I wasn't really impressed, had a few laughs but I like the first movie better.

Maybe because I expected alot from the sequel. Why? Because Night at the Museum 2 grossed in alot of $$$ than Terminator Salvation did.

The only highlight of the move were Amy Adams. I like her big gray eyes. They sparkle with emotion every time she talks. Ben Stiller bored me though.

I should have just watched Angels and Demons again. It wouldn't matter if I've watched it already. =P

what i think about pork fever

Swine Flu

this is a worldwide scare today. A(H1N1) virus has caused concern for everyone especially in places where there had been confirmed cases of swine flu patients.

one thing i've learned from reading and watching news alerts regarding swine flu is to constantly wash your hands and don't touch your face with unwashed hands. but one thing is sure, you don't contract this by eating pork or any processed foods that has pork in it. one friend was really scared of swine flu. she told me: "lois! is it true swine flu is now in the philippines? yet i never stopped eating pork, what should i do???" it was funny when she told me this. but when you're really concerned of your health, it's not.

i hope this will go away soon. or at least, someone can find a vaccine for this or cure perhaps. if i learn anything more, i'll be sure to post it.

scary ordeal

my new fear: Dentist Chair.

i went to the dentist yesterday for aesthetic reasons.. i never thought that i would need a tooth extraction.

Dra. Velos, the dentist, proceeded with application of anesthesia and waited until it took effect: my gums went numb basically. she was having a hard time taking the tooth out as it was kinda twisted, blame my genes for strong but crooked teeth. ugh. i hated the whole ordeal, spitting out saliva and sometimes blood in the middle of the dentist's effort in extracting my stubborn teeth. ewww.. as soon as the crown broke off from its root, i got real scared. she had to drill into my gums. arrggghhh! at last! everything was removed though it took more than 2 hours for the whole thing. i can't imagine any other time i felt greater relief than when i left the chair.

so anyone who needs to go to the dentist, make sure you have muttered all your courage before lying down on that scary chair. my heart goes out to all of you.

the one thing that i was happy about even after all this. i get to eat ice cream! weeee... my relatives were with me and when we had dinner at chowking, they all gave me their scoops of ice cream from their halo-halo! how great is that! :D

till my next post... see yah!

delaying needlessly

Procrastination.
From the base word, procrastinate, which means to postpone or delay needlessly.

I resigned from eGS last December 2008, I started to process my clearance when 2009 came. But the headset I surrendered was apparently not the one the company originally assigned to me so I had to sign an Authority to Deduct (ATD) for a thousand pesos. I did not do so immediately as I was hoping my actual headset would turn up.

Today, I decided to come back to complete my clearance and exit interview. I woke up with a splitting headache and nausea. But I had errands to do at the bank, I had no choice but to leave my bed. Immediately after I went to the security office to sign for the ATD. The guard on duty directed me to look for the security head to sign my clearance. Unfortunately, he went to lunch. I asked for the HR officer, she too went to lunch.

eGS has been waiting for me to process my clearance. Now, it's my turn to wait. Inasmuch as I want to, I can't go home yet because I have resolved to clear my name today. I just have to wait.
One hour can't be that long. I saw ENGY cafe and I decided to while my time here...

I should learn my lesson about not "delaying needlessly," I hope. I'll let you know soon if I've been procrastinating again. :D